Wishes Won't Dig The Well

I wish I came from more love

Maybe it would make me feel more than enough

I wish it all didn't fall apart
Maybe it would have gave me a better start

I wish I never offered you my time
Maybe if I didn't it would all be fine

I wish my body was never bruised at the hands of others
Maybe if they didn't I wouldn't close myself off to people like shutters

I wish I came from years of pure joy rather than pure loss
Maybe if I did I would'nt feel like true happiness for me was false

I wish I never said I love you
Maybe if I didn't I would not have felt so blue

But what if I had known from the beginning
I certainly wouln't have known what it felt like to be winning

But what if it all went right
I certainly wouldn't have ached just to find my own light

But what if these scars are actually art
I certainly woulnd't be this young and so smart

But what if there was beauty in my downfall
I certainly wouldn't be this well rounded overall

But what if I took your hatred, your venom, your violence and all you were unleashing
I certainly wouldn't be able to help everyone I have been teaching

But what if all the times I felt so alone
I was being prepared for all I ever asked for, only my past must be outgrown

But if your wishes were actually making the well worse?
What if everything I went to was meant run its course?
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