Rearview

Some days, even now it's so hard to understand

Why for so long pain was my only brand

Life after death seems so surreal
But I know it all happened because of the way I sometimes feel

If you only knew how I have to reassure myself the good times can stay
So much so that I sometimes get in my own way

The dust has settled, and life is vibrant
But the rearview, oh how it was so violent

Everyone says look forward, and never back
But i'ts such a new feeling to have nights filled laughs when most nights were filled with black

This feeling, it's unkown and strange
Because chapter after chapter I had write a new story, when I was never ready to turn the page

Am I safe? Will it all come crashing down?
No one knows how many tears fell to earn this crown

I brush it all off, and accept the beatuiful creation that was and is now me
And I realize that every broken memory makes me have depths like the sea

It's all in the rearview, in the road behind
But because of it all I will never forget how the road to peace was hard to find

-A